A change in perspective

All day long I've been thinking that I needed to blog about how my 31 days of change is probably going to turn more into a just a couple posts here and there and not even close to 31 posts on awesome projects I've done around the house. It's not that fun to take a picture of 3 bags full of D.I. stuff taken from random places all over the house. And even though every day is filled with improvement and making progress, I don't feel like it's "bloggable". So, having said that--I was going to get on and do a whole post about how much of a failure I am. It sounds super lame that something like this could seriously get me down...but I hold myself to ridiculous standards and when I don't accomplish what I set out to do, I'm really hard on myself. It's a part of my personality that really stinks. The passion inside me is awesome in someways and completely destructive in others.

Then I watched a 4 minute video that my SIL sent me. I don't know the family or much about the situation. I just know that their sweet daughter Mia was given a heart transplant as an infant that took well. They were on their way to Disney World in Florida (compliments of the Make a Wish Foundation) when everything changed. She is now on life support in a hospital in Tampa and the news report says that she was taken off life support today (Monday). This video is touching and heartbreaking all at once. And the song by Mindy Gledhill is a favorite of mine. It's worth a watch but grab some tissues.

Here is the local news report that goes along with their story. 

I honestly cannot imagine how devastated they must be feeling. After 4 years of renewed hope and such JOY that their little girl got a second chance at life, they are dealing with her passing. 

I'm not going to lie--I've been feeling sorry for myself today. Even after watching some amazing Conference talks again, writing in my journal, making a trip to the D.I., getting laundry done and making a yummy dinner for the family...I've been down in the dumps because I see people around me achieving and doing things I want to be doing. Getting into homes, having babies, enjoying stability and not wondering where they will be in 6 months. My inner demons have been plaguing me and I feel like nobody understands the way it's affecting me...but watching this video is exactly what I needed to pull myself out of my own self-pity.

I suspect there are very few, if any, people who understand how this family is feeling. They have lost someone they love. Someone that cannot be replaced. I feel foolish for being so self-centered and feeling sorry for myself over such trivial things. I'm so glad I watched this and let it change me.