1 AM
My body and my brain are so tired. I'm so exhausted but I can't sleep. I haven't had insomnia for a while but the last two nights have been rough. I got 5 very light hours of sleep last night and anyone who knows me well, knows that I don't function well when I don't get enough sleep.
My brain won't shut off. I am being a worry wart. I remember my mom calling me a worry wart when I was just a kid. Some things never change, I guess. Time for a mini-venting session.
Things that are stressing me out:
* Wanting Cole to have more friends his age that live closeby
* Wishing we knew more people on our track so that he could play with kids his age
* Trying to find a piano teacher closeby.
* Having the world's longest head cold and daily headaches
* Not resolving my dizzy spells and my dang doctor not filling out the LOA paperwork correctly
* Planning a vacation that I'm feeling uneasy about
* The fact that right after blogging about exercising, I started to not do it anymore because I started feeling like garbage
* All I want to eat is sugar
* I don't want to get type 2 Diabetes
* Teenage girls shouldn't be allowed on social media because they make complete fools of themselves and will one day regret all those selfies...
* Missing my friends and feeling kinda lonely
* Hoping I'm not wasting my life away getting distracted with things that don't really matter. Like, maybe I should read a book that will enlighten me instead of looking at Instagram or maybe I should organize the paperwork that is taking over my life?
* Thinking about a close friend who is really struggling with the church and her testimony
* How sick my Grandpa is and that as an only child, my mom has to carry that burden and it doesn't seem fair
Things that I'm loving:
* Caleb is FINALLY starting to take some steps. He is balancing on his own and will occasionally get brave enough to venture away from a supporting hand or the furniture
* Feeling blessed that even with the things I'm struggling with--my testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ has not wavered
* The people I work with
* The people I'll spend eternity with
* Ice cream & Frozen Yogurt
* The warm weather
* Cole being such a big helper and good big brother
* My shampoo and conditioner {it's the little things}
* My new iPhone {it's also the big things}
* FaceTiming
* Having the Mazda back
* The scriptures
* Days off of work
* Payday in 2 days
* General Conference is just around the corner {yeah!}
I know I have a pretty great life and really shouldn't complain. Some days are just like this, I suppose. I need to make a list of all my blessings {I haven't made my list yet Steph, heh}. I know I have so much to be thankful for. I have people in my life who love me and care about me. Sometimes I forget that. Sometimes the adversary succeeds in trying to make me unsure about things in my life and that is the worst. He is such a loser.
Time for some Archie tunes..."Ohhh it's glorious"...
My brain won't shut off. I am being a worry wart. I remember my mom calling me a worry wart when I was just a kid. Some things never change, I guess. Time for a mini-venting session.
Things that are stressing me out:
* Wanting Cole to have more friends his age that live closeby
* Wishing we knew more people on our track so that he could play with kids his age
* Trying to find a piano teacher closeby.
* Having the world's longest head cold and daily headaches
* Not resolving my dizzy spells and my dang doctor not filling out the LOA paperwork correctly
* Planning a vacation that I'm feeling uneasy about
* The fact that right after blogging about exercising, I started to not do it anymore because I started feeling like garbage
* All I want to eat is sugar
* I don't want to get type 2 Diabetes
* Teenage girls shouldn't be allowed on social media because they make complete fools of themselves and will one day regret all those selfies...
* Missing my friends and feeling kinda lonely
* Hoping I'm not wasting my life away getting distracted with things that don't really matter. Like, maybe I should read a book that will enlighten me instead of looking at Instagram or maybe I should organize the paperwork that is taking over my life?
* Thinking about a close friend who is really struggling with the church and her testimony
* How sick my Grandpa is and that as an only child, my mom has to carry that burden and it doesn't seem fair
Things that I'm loving:
* Caleb is FINALLY starting to take some steps. He is balancing on his own and will occasionally get brave enough to venture away from a supporting hand or the furniture
* Feeling blessed that even with the things I'm struggling with--my testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ has not wavered
* The people I work with
* The people I'll spend eternity with
* Ice cream & Frozen Yogurt
* The warm weather
* Cole being such a big helper and good big brother
* My shampoo and conditioner {it's the little things}
* My new iPhone {it's also the big things}
* FaceTiming
* Having the Mazda back
* The scriptures
* Days off of work
* Payday in 2 days
* General Conference is just around the corner {yeah!}
I know I have a pretty great life and really shouldn't complain. Some days are just like this, I suppose. I need to make a list of all my blessings {I haven't made my list yet Steph, heh}. I know I have so much to be thankful for. I have people in my life who love me and care about me. Sometimes I forget that. Sometimes the adversary succeeds in trying to make me unsure about things in my life and that is the worst. He is such a loser.
Time for some Archie tunes..."Ohhh it's glorious"...
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