Merry Christmas to Me

Christmas Present Cake, originally uploaded by PinkCakeBox.

In an attempt to direct the attention away from that awful picture of me in the previous post, I wanted to share a little something that I've decided to do for myself this year for Christmas...and forever (I hope). There is a person in my life who is wonderful. Thoughtful, sweet, and seemingly perfect in so many ways. I always find myself comparing myself to this person. ALWAYS. It has kind of become a little plague that follows me around, and makes it clear to me that I am never as good, never as clean, never as proper, never as acceptable, never as productive, and never as clever. A real self-esteem booster, right? I mean who doesn't love to feel like they NEVER match up? But what I'm giving myself this year has no price tag, it has no gift receipt, and cannot be purchased in any stores. I am giving myself the ability to let go of this ridiculous daily/hourly comparison. It doesn't do me any good, and this person is completely unaware of my bad habit. (Of this I am positive). So, I'm letting myself free of this. Today was the day that I decided not to care, not to compare, and not to think about what "so and so" would do. Because quite frankly I am NOT "so and so". I am a very different person. Personality, sense of humor, personal limitations and other circumstances make us very different people. Enough already. I just have to be my best self, and I can be happy with that. Merry Christmas to me, and you better believe this will be on my list of Resolutions for 2008. That's all.