Here goes nothing

I have been trying to lose weight since I was 16.  I've done different diets, gone to the gym, started a personal website and counted calories.  This might just be my struggle in life. (and being followed by the paparazzi).  HOWEVER, I also believe in the scripture in Ether 12:27.

And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.

I've lost weight and gained weight.  Lost it again and gained it back.  The good news is that because I've lost it successfully, I know I can do it.  The bad news is that it's so hard to maintain.  Well there's more good news.  I have been totally motivated by some friends and family.  It seems like everyone I know is training for some type of race.  I'm not a fan of running since my knees starting bothering me but I know there are other things I've done that are just as effective.  I've started using a website called www.myfitnesspal.com and I've lost 4 pounds.  It helps that my work keeps me pretty active.  Not running around, but definitely not sedentary.  There are lots of people I know who are using this and it's so great to have that support.  To see what each other are doing and how successful they've been.

Tonight we had FHE on the word of wisdom and it really got me thinking about how I need to start NOW to show Cole good eating habits and a healthy way of life.  I don't want him to struggle with his self esteem and always feel like he's not attractive when he looks in the mirror because I've been there and it's painful.

We played a little game where I grabbed things around the kitchen and we had to sort them by how healthy they were.  Cole had fun with it and wanted to start pulling things randomly out of the fridge.  "Are pickles healthy?"  I haven't been able to stop thinking about our lesson tonight.  I don't just want to sit on the couch eating ding dongs and teaching Cole about what not to eat.  I want to show him by EXAMPLE what a healthy lifestyle is like.  It's hard to be an example for someone so impressionable when you feel kind of unworthy to be the one to show them.  Having said that--it will make ME stronger in the end.

So this may be a very long and hard journey for me but there's even MORE good news...every time I fall down, I get back up and I think that's a huge part of the equation.  So here's to getting back up.