Update

Things have been rough around these parts. I'm on an emailing basis with my Urologist. Thursday I have a "bladder scan" and I have surgery scheduled for two weeks from today. It has a fancy name:
Cystoscopy with Hydrodistention and this is what ichelp.org has to say about it: Under general or regional anesthesia, this procedure uses a cystoscope to look inside your bladder after slowly stretching it with fluid (hydrodistention). This allows your physician to see changes inside of your bladder that are typical of IC, including the presence of pin-point sized red marks on the bladder wall, also called glomerulations or petechial hemorrhages. This procedure also allows doctors to see Hunner's ulcers (patches), which are present in a small number of people with IC.

I'll go under general anesthesia and even though it's just outpatient surgery, the recovery time is rough. Like, weeks with some yucky risks. At this point, I feel like it's my only option and I feel okay about it. It's also another way to rule out more serious things like cancer (which I'm not seriously concerned about but it'd be nice to have it ruled out). 

I've missed a lot of work and we have some other things going on that are making this more than I feel like I can handle some days. 

Ironically, while perusing Facebook, I have had several friends and family members post things that have brought me comfort and really lifted my spirits. A BYU Conference talk, a Mormon Ad video, etc. The scriptures have also been a huge source of strength. At this point, my prayers have changed from "please take this trial away" to "please help me faithfully endure this trial". I wish I had more answers and knew what I was supposed to be learning from this but I do know that it's for my good. As hard as that is to accept. The one silver lining to all of this is that I have learned how to eat better. I've lost almost 15 pounds and hope to keep dropping.