Life with diabetes

I've gotten the hang of things pretty well. It's not that it's really HARD, it's just...inconvenient (and a little bit hard). Every single time I put anything in my mouth, I have to account for it. I have to figure out if it has carbs, if so--how many and if I have room for it in my meal plan. I am only allotted a certain number of carbs per day and within that, only a certain amount per snack or meal. I have to eat every 2-3 hours and it is mapped out how many carbs I can eat. It's a lot of record keeping, remembering to take my oral medication and working with the diabetes clinic to know how much insulin to give myself. I'm taking Lantus, which is like an extended release form of insulin so I don't dose myself every time I eat. I do it once in the AM and once in the PM. We have to keep increasing my dosage because the further along  you get in pregnancy, the stronger the growth hormones get which in turn makes the body more resistant to insulin. I haven't been able to get my fasting blood sugar in the 80's even ONCE since being diagnosed and that is frustrating. It doesn't matter what I eat or what time of day I eat last--it is always high in the morning. So we're getting more aggressive with how many units I'm taking and I'm hoping this week we'll be able to get it stable. 

At my last appointment, I was pleased that my A1C had dropped ever so slightly even though it wasn't too high to begin with and that I hadn't gained any weight in a month. The PA was very impressed and made sure I knew what a big accomplishment that was at this stage of pregnancy. It did make me feel good to hear her little pep talk because I feel like I am working really hard, and eating like a Nazi. I'm having to basically put off my cravings which is hard when you're pregnant...and stressed...and emotional. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise so I don't eat myself into a black hole.

The doc says if my blood pressure remains this good, we'll schedule a repeat c-section at 38 weeks so we've only got 8 weeks or less to go. I have been advocating a VBAC but with my history, Cole's history and now the diabetes it just wasn't going to happen. At least this time I can prepare myself for what's coming. Holy smokes. We are not ready for this baby to come! With Cole, I feel like I sat around twiddling my thumbs for the last few weeks because I was as prepared as I thought I could be at the time. I guess a lot can happen in 8 weeks so I shouldn't put off the idea that we could actually be ready when our  nameless boy is born. But at this point, there is a lot that needs to happen. Also, what are we going to name this child? I think Danny and I have very different taste in names so he might come home from the hospital being called "Brother" or "Baby". Or since he'll probably be chubby from the diabetes--"Bubba".