What a difference a day {or two} makes
Sometimes it's okay to step back and realize you've made a mistake. And that you're being ridiculous. Now is one of those times. I am an emotional basket case right now and the second to last blog post reflects that. I apologize. I know that some things are better left unsaid (especially in such a public way). Sometimes I'm open to a fault and it's something I have to work at. This pregnancy has been vastly different than my pregnancy with Cole because I have been WAY more emotional. I literally cried twice when I was pregnant with Cole and this pregnancy has been the complete opposite. It's so hard to have rational thoughts when you're inundated with fluctuating hormones and the moms out there can vouch for me:) So basically, I'm just a bawl baby who is too sensitive and not responding to stress or "the unknown" very well. The joys of pregnancy :) Having said that, I'll take it all because it means that I'm pregnant and there truly are no words to describe how happy that makes me. I'm very, very blessed and I'm going to focus more on that!
I have been extremely humbled by reading this and I'd recommend it to anyone of any religious persuasion. Reading the Psalms from the Bible accompanied with Elder Holland's commentary and powerful testimony has opened my eyes to my recent behavior and has made me want to be better. I have been walking around with a black cloud over my head, like Eeyore! I know that this isn't 100% hormones, either. So, I'm going to get up, brush myself off and start fresh. Thank goodness God loves us enough to give us multiple second chances and the opportunity to repent of our shortcomings and try again. I've been selfish and unfocused on what matters most. People, not things.
As long as I have my family close and put God first in my life, things will fall into place OR fall out of my life. Was it President Hinckley that once said that? Either way, it's true. Some way or another things will work themselves out. I'm embarrassed that I've lost sight of something so basic in my own beliefs. Once again, thank goodness for repentance and second chances.
Also, I want to clarify something. I shouldn't have complained about this mystery person that I have struggled with. I've made people who I love paranoid and I'm embarrassed that I even wasted the negative energy to focus on it. It is nobody in my household and is certainly not my parents (the poor people have had to walk on egg shells around me because I'm such an emotional wreck so they have been fabulous) but I do feel bad I've caused so much controversy and paranoia. Let's just chalk it up to me being imperfect and pretend like it never happened :)
One thing that really humbled me over the last 48 or so hours is this book:
I have been extremely humbled by reading this and I'd recommend it to anyone of any religious persuasion. Reading the Psalms from the Bible accompanied with Elder Holland's commentary and powerful testimony has opened my eyes to my recent behavior and has made me want to be better. I have been walking around with a black cloud over my head, like Eeyore! I know that this isn't 100% hormones, either. So, I'm going to get up, brush myself off and start fresh. Thank goodness God loves us enough to give us multiple second chances and the opportunity to repent of our shortcomings and try again. I've been selfish and unfocused on what matters most. People, not things.
As long as I have my family close and put God first in my life, things will fall into place OR fall out of my life. Was it President Hinckley that once said that? Either way, it's true. Some way or another things will work themselves out. I'm embarrassed that I've lost sight of something so basic in my own beliefs. Once again, thank goodness for repentance and second chances.
Also, I want to clarify something. I shouldn't have complained about this mystery person that I have struggled with. I've made people who I love paranoid and I'm embarrassed that I even wasted the negative energy to focus on it. It is nobody in my household and is certainly not my parents (the poor people have had to walk on egg shells around me because I'm such an emotional wreck so they have been fabulous) but I do feel bad I've caused so much controversy and paranoia. Let's just chalk it up to me being imperfect and pretend like it never happened :)
I'm so thankful to have these simple reminders {thanks Pinterest}:
Here's to a new perspective and to hope in the future because it really is bright.
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